Undeserving

Undeserving. That is what I am, when it comes to God's blessings in my life. It is an ongoing process, but I am learning that God honors faithfulness. He also greatly rewards those who are kingdom-minded and who see the big-picture. I try to do just that. I know God will bless me and my family for bringing honor and glory to Him.

I had several meetings yesterday and today that are helping define the future of my family. Looking back, I can hardly believe how God has been with us, remained our friend, and looked out for our well-being. He is so good to His children. Each of my meetings over the past two days have reminded me of just how blessed I am to have God leading my life. I've made mistakes. I've fallen short many times. I have disappointed many people, I am certain. I also know that God knows our hearts. He knows how we treat others. God knows our intentions, our insecurities, and our fears. He hears our prayes. He answers our call. God's masterplan for each of our lives has been in place for a very long time. Realizing that He knows the end from the beginning brings me a great amount of comfort. God is in control.

The most amazing thing happened to me at the doctor's office today. Since I was home, and in town for a couple of days, I thought it a good idea to visit my family physician. My bloodwork from yesterday morning came back and everything was perfect! Did you read what I just typed??? Perfect! Anyone who knows me, knows that I am not perfect by any means. But when it comes to my cholesterol, sugar, kidneys, and all the other 2,368 tests they run with bloodwork, I'd say that is good news. Such good news, that the doctor printed out the results and told me to go home and frame it to the wall! Could a positive outlook on life be connected to better health? Is happiness in life related to a healthier life? Living stress-free is the way to go. When I think of what used to weigh me down... what used to occupy my mind, and what used to challenge me at every opportunity... I just have to give God all the glory! No more shackles, no more chains... no more bondage, I am free! He is so amazing. I am still undeserving.